"stressed out" and Update

Hello everyone,  just a quick update from my side of the world.  Last weekend I worked on making videos for my YouTube channel, and finally this evening just uploaded 3 more!   So if you haven't check those out, you are more than welcome.  I worked on a decoupage project, and a fabric flip to be used in junk journals using wedding dress appliques.   Such fun, and a little bit country too.  <------ Fabric pieces.

 :)    https://www.youtube.com/@marysmith4501 

  The weather here has turned on the cold side again, after experiencing temps in upper 50's!   Wow, that really made it feel like it was the early days of Spring. 

  I'm getting an idea of what sort of flowers I would like to keep in hanging pots, I do love vinca flowers or may be known as periwinkle, they come in shades ranging from pinks to dark red and purple.   While much of my other flowers withered from the hot dry temps we experienced last Summer, as a desperate attempt to bring a little color back into my garden, I went to my local hardware center and picked out some lovely periwinkles... they surprised me with their lovely bright green leaves and beautiful flowers, their sturdy frame stood up to the hot dry days, I kept them watered.. they outlasted the petunias, and other various plants.   And to much of my surprise little butterflies loved their nectar.  Even saw a couple of hummingbirds flit in and out of the delicate blooms.   What more could I ask of a flower, it must be able to withstand harsh hot weather, and windy days.... those will be my go to flower.  

And on another note, there was a position going to open in my job, but now with cut backs and such, that won't be happening.... and I am glad.  As I thought I wanted to go into that direction, but something else has come up and could possibly be an alternative.   So, that is now on the horizon.   

The other day, I was so stressed out as I had to wait at the hospital, while my hubby had a routine exam.  Well, all I could think of was when my mother was at the hospital when she experienced a massive stroke.  It's like all I could think of was seeing her in the final moments of life.  Back then, family was in and out of the room, walking past me, or just waiting around talking quietly.   It wasn't as if I was alone, and my hubby was there as well.   But, at my husband's appointment it was just me sitting there getting caught up in my thoughts, I brought a book to read but mainly just browsed through the first few pages - a nervous read, as I had referred to it.    The following day, every part of me ached.  I didn't feel like doing much of anything.   The last time hubby had to go through that, my mother was still around and I called her, she then listened to me go on how I felt, and how nervous I was.  She knew what I was going through, and even said, "Remember, I told you he would be fine".    Well, that's what I wanted to hear again, "All will be fine"    My thoughts got all tangled up like a big ball of yarn, straggled strings and rubber bands.   And I forgot to keep my focus on the Lord.  Even though I felt alone, I should have remembered he was right there beside me.   And after all was said and done... those words that my mother gave me, came back in mind.  

Well, I do thank you all for coming to my blog and visiting... sometimes it helps me to write things down.  Usually its in my journal but today thought you might like an update.

Have a blessed day,  hugs, Mary